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| This is my first entry in a long time. I think I wanted to write because I got really scared that if I didn't I would eventually become a boring person with no thoughs and no opinions....and that scares me. Anyway, I saw a movie with some of my good friends yesterday at the Vogue Thater in Laurel Heights...very nice one-theater cinema. It made me think about what happens to people when they feel like there is nothing left to lose. When it's too late to turn aroud and go back...and when all you can do is to keep moving forward. The story begins as a couple in their early 30s discover they're pregnant and have the chance to start over and explore the different places they can live, since his parents are moving to another country. Along the way, they discover things about themslves, about other parents and families that make them fear what is to come in their lives, but eventually come to terms that they have each other and that is enough. I loved this couple for their confidence in themselves and in each other; a satisfaction in human companionship that I don't think I have ever felt with another person. The more I grow, the more I realize that this romantic idea of falling in love and marrying one day is just half the story. And even though this quest to discovering what the other half of this might be is at times painful and frustrating, I think that maybe the relationships in our lives function more as partnerships of sorts, rather than being based on feelings and hope. More than that, they're based on trust and perseverance. At 23, I really don't think having the answers to that really matters...but what does matter is being able to know myself. I don't know why I am writing this entry, except to get my thoughts out in writing and without losing meaning of what my thoughts are at this very moment. In the age of one-sentence updates on twitter and facebook...I thought this was the better choice. | | |
| Why I love Fridays...SPREAD the LOVE! ong, Stacy [8:14 AM]: adam why did that angry plus client email me again? Hartzell, Adam [8:15 AM]: because you're so cute Hartzell, Adam [8:15 AM]: i get it all the time too Fong, Stacy [8:15 AM]: b/c you're cute too Fong, Stacy [8:15 AM]: =D Fong, Stacy [8:15 AM]: cuuute Hartzell, Adam [8:15 AM]: hehehehe Fong, Stacy [8:19 AM]: i got you a bagel cuz you said i was cute =) Hartzell, Adam [8:19 AM]: hahahha Hartzell, Adam [8:19 AM]: you're so sweet Hartzell, Adam [8:19 AM]: when I'm sweet Fong, Stacy [8:19 AM]: giving compliments DOES pay off Hartzell, Adam [8:19 AM]: Hartzell, Adam [8:20 AM]: well Hartzell, Adam [8:20 AM]: i'm here to keep reminding you Hartzell, Adam [8:20 AM]: in case you ever forget how cute you are Fong, Stacy [8:20 AM]: haha Fong, Stacy [8:20 AM]: may need it once in a while thanks! | | |
| I love vacation days!
It's the best when you come home...and you feel like you just stepped back into something really familiar. I was in Dallas for the past four days for my sister's final days at DTS. She's been in seminary there for THREE years! Seminary is not where nuns go...that is a monestary? haha...it's where you go study the Bible and become super smart on Bibilical theology...just FYI. So anyway..that's a long time..(like how long my commitment to the gym is..exactly!) Anyways, I have to say I had a pretty wonderful time just chillin at first w/ my parents and sister, and then meeting my sister's friends and hearing them share about their time in Dallas, work, and food. If there's one thing I've been learning lately..it's that there are too many good things in life to complain. I've been flying around a lot this year...and today, for the first time in a while, I looked out the window and marveled at how beautiful it was to be so high..mountains, snow, clouds, water--all of it! I remembered why I liked flying in planes so much.
Here are a few pictures from the weekend.
the AABC's...haha how appropriate!
the accountability girls
what would a graduation be w/out one of these...
90 degrees and sunny one second...the next...thunderstorms and rivers forming down the street!
lee/fong sisters...only Sherilyn is missing!
the tide pen model!
In case you can't see..his shirt says "Team Tata's" and he kept yelling.."Save the Tata's!!"
Taste Addison..what a deal. =D
Clarissa and Karen..cousins! how cute!
The Afters!!
I love getting free stuff! I'm Chinese! I love getting free stuff!!
Irish Pub w/ Seminary students!! yess..the corruption begins! jk!
Michelle, Jennifer, Me, and Angela...I like talking to Angela!! =)
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FOOD! Hook, Line, and Sinker?
The final meal in Dallas...PANDA EXPRESS. The End. =)
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| April 29th. The Graciousness of Uncertainty
"My Utmost for His Highest" -Oswald Chambers
"What we will be has not yet been made known." 1 John 3:2
Naturally, we are inclined to be so mathematical and calculating that we look upon uncertainty as a bad thing. We imagine that we have to reach some end, but that is not the nature of spiritual life. The nature of spiritual life is that we are certain in our uncertainty, consequently we do not make our nests anywhere. Common sense says --"Well, supposing I were in that condition..." We cannot suppose ourselves in any any condition we have never been in.
Certainty is the mark of the common-sense life: Gracious uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual life. To be certain of God means that we are uncertain in all our ways, we do not know what a day may bring forth. This is generally said with a sigh of sadness; it should be rather an expression of breathless expectation. We are uncertain of the next step, but we are certain of God. Immediately we abandon to God, and do the duty that lies nearest, He packs our life with surprises all the time. When we become advocates of a creed, something dies; we do not believe God, we only believe our belief about Him. Jesus said, "Unless you...become like little children." Spiritual life is the life of a child. We are not uncertain of God, but uncertain of what He is going to do next. If we are only certain in our beliefs, we get dignified and severe and have the ban of finality about our views; but when we are rightly related to God, life is full of spontaneous, joyful uncertainty and expectancy.
"Trust also in me," said Jesus, not --"Believe certain things about Me." Leave the whole thing to Him, it is gloriously uncertain how He will come in, but He will come. Remain loyal to Him.
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| Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
Let that be enough
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